Analysis of the Enneagram

Recently, I have been diving into discovering myself and trying to pull myself out of a hole. That I was in for a while. Thankfully, I have been able to get back to being myself. But who am I?

According to the Enneagram, I am a textbook Nine. I have a fear of separation, and the desire to find a balance and “maintaining the baseline.” In the words of my old philosophy professor, Grant Snider, this is done through creating few boundaries between everything you do. At the end of the day he says that it is “often about the way you interact with others…. being resilient. It is about collecting yourself and keep on going."

When it comes to my relationships, I am often the referee. I try to keep everyone level and make sure they follow the rules. It is often known as “the peacemaker” because this type is devoted to internal and external peace for others and me. Working to create peace and harmony is a fundamental desire with psychological and spiritual work. I know that I have a lot of work to prevent myself from being anxious and stressed, and I am relatively disconnected from my instinctual energies.

Toxic positivity is something that I struggle with. Trying to ignore the negatives often leads to focusing on how I want to be instead of staying present in now. I try to see the bright side of life and the silver lining in every cloud to protect myself from the cold and the rain. My favorite quote is from Grey’s Anatomy, when Christina Yang is encouraging her bAn

If you ask my friends, I often speak in metaphors, and I like to create understanding and symbols to help share the ideas that run through my mind. This way, I can help them find a parallel in things they know.

It is very easy for me to lose myself in my thoughts and think deeply about situations that allow me to contemplate the hypothetical and philosophical answers to life. Sometimes, I can go into a “hermit mode” and isolate myself from those who care about me in order to find myself again.

This test was interesting, as it dove into my strengths and weaknesses. This helped build my confidence in my strengths and to bring awareness to the weak points of my personality type. Confidence, impractivality, and self-identity are my weaknesses. However, my strengths are being open minded and flexible approach to life, with a live and let live attitude. I take pride in my creative approach to things, since I can often see a different perspective to issues that arise.

I recently got my aura and past lives looked at by someone who I didn’t expect to meet in any lifetime. I was recently hospitalized for an extreme anxiety attack, and one of the other patients asked me if I was okay with her seeking answers I couldn’t find myself, as I had a strong green aura, which she had never seen before.

As I looked more into the colors of an aura, I resonated with the color she said my aura was: green and white. I try to be intelligent and rational, with many to-do lists that help me stay on track.

Overall, journeying down the path of self-awareness has been an eye-opening experience into understanding my personality type. Starting with the Enneagram and moving towards one of 16 personalities has given me the insight necessary to discovering myself, as well as an aura reading.

In the past few days, I’ve answered a lot of thought-provoking questions to help me figure out which type is mine, and I have gained an insight and knowledge to discovering myself and how I can best operate as a human being with a specific type of personality. Hopefully, I can make the changes I need to do to beome healthy and happy.